Let me tell you bout my mama

I'm not the best at picking out guys, I'll admit. I've gotten hurt by pretty much all of them... I remember what the hurt felt like from everyone of them, but what I didn't realize until I became a mom was that it wasn't just hurting me... My mom was right by my side though … Continue reading Let me tell you bout my mama

Toxic relationships can cause PTSD.

Someone told me once that you can't get PTSD over a toxic relationship. WRONG. Yes you can. Oh boy can you!! I've dated some real ass holes (pretty much 90%of who I dated). I've been physically abused, mentally abused, emotionally abused and verbally abused.... All of that is trauma... And what is PTSD associated with?! … Continue reading Toxic relationships can cause PTSD.

It’s honestly scary how another human can change you

I'm about to get real personal right now because this full moon got having the damn feels... I'm sad... Not because I'm getting a divorce anymore... Not because I was cheated on, or belittled, but because I'm different now. What made me, ME before, isn't what makes me now... I was open, optimistic, and and … Continue reading It’s honestly scary how another human can change you

I was told to “Just be happy”

I really wish people would do some research on mental health and what it does to a person. I was told once, "Why can't you just be happy?" Like if I could just be happy don't you fucking think I would be?! Do you think I am just choosing sadness and depression? Um, NO. I … Continue reading I was told to “Just be happy”

I want to ‘Bye Felicia’ everyone

Anyone ever just want to up and move somewhere and not tell anyone? Yeah, I'm at that point in my life. My life has been full of drama for the last like 5 years straight. The kind of drama that seems to just follow you because there's no way to just fully avoid it. People … Continue reading I want to ‘Bye Felicia’ everyone

Goodbye 2019

2019 was a pretty hard year... Alright, 2019 sucked ass! I had nothing but hurt, deceit, and sickness the whole fucking year. I was lied to by those close to me. I was cheated on. My anxiety worsened. My depression worsened. Panic attacks all over the damn place. I was played. I was used. I … Continue reading Goodbye 2019